Vulnerability of an Influencer

Can I be real and raw with y’all for a minute? I know I’m usually rah rah inspirational so if this isn’t your vibe, I get it and you can stop reading. But as influencers (I don’t consider myself one, but some people assign me that label) we are inclined to show the best aspects of our lives. Epic hikes, Hawaii lifestyle, basically everything you see on my feed. But the fact is at this moment I struggle a lot from worry. Worry in what the future may hold because I have to find a new place to live in 2 weeks. Worry because it’s hard to find photo jobs that pay really well to sustain living in Hawaii. Worried cause although winging it is good, sometimes when finding a place to live, cutting it this close can be disastrous and it’s my own fault. And mostly worried because I feel like I am doing my own thing and not consulting God enough in my decisions. But you know what I also know, I know that there’s a reason I’m here. I know that God didn’t create me and send his Son to die for me so that I could worry about what the future holds. I’ve found that what I worry most about is not what my circumstances will be, but what people will think of me. The fact is, it doesn’t matter what you think of me or what a friend thinks of me, the only thing that matters is what God thinks of me and if I’m sitting in line with His plan for my life. So that’s really something I’m trying to navigate at the moment and it’s not easy. I’m not really sure what the point of this is, or if there is one. Who knows, maybe you’ll find some value in my struggle, just thought I’d share. If anyone can relate I’d love to hear and we can support each other in the struggle because life is not a solo sport. Be blessed and stay stoked😎🤙 • • • • • •