Reflection on Self-Image and Life Changes

I didn’t want to post this. I’m still not confident I want it on the internet. When we took this video I was happy as a clam, living the dream, and didn’t have a single care in the world other than being on this boat for sunset. After we recorded it I checked it out and was like “yes! Love it!” And then I got home and looked again and immediately said to myself “nope not gonna post it.” I have never weighed as much as I do, I’ve never been so out of a workout routine, and I’ve never looked at a video of myself and felt like it wasn’t me, until this one. Life has been a series of extreme emotions in every direction for me since November and I definitely haven’t been taking care of myself. I honestly don’t know what the lesson is here right now or why I’m sharing this but it just felt right to be a little raw. 🤷🏼‍♀️ The internet isn’t real life, ya know? You all are the best and I’ve been a little extra thankful for all of you over the last few months ❤️ thank you for being you!