Choosing Myself: A Personal Journey

And you make it everyday ✨ That first clip is from a ten minute video of me pouring my emotions out after leaving the home I had shared with the person I had spent the previous six years with. It’s be 365 days since I cried those tears and today was the first time I watched that video back. I said something I didn’t remember saying.. “There are a million reasons why this sucks and there are a million reasons why this is sad… but there is one reason that outweighs all of that. I needed to choose me… This relationship was the last part of my life that I wasn’t choosing me.” And truth be told I hadn’t really been choosing myself prior to this relationship. I’ve spent a lot of the last 365 days learning new ways I need to show up for myself and it’s been beautiful, dark, silent, overwhelmingly difficult, vibrant, and so much more. My best friend looked at me the other day and said “I don’t even remember you in a relationship” and I thought “damn, I’ve done it, I’m me.” I’m not done working, and I never will be, but taking this moment to reflect has shown me that listening to what I need will never be something I regret. I also wanted to say thanks to you all for letting me navigate it all in whatever way I needed too everyday. I didn’t always show the messy and sad moments but having y’all here to bring light into the darkness meant the world to me and still does 🫶🏻 Cheers to the people who I’ve met and gone on unforgettable adventures with in the last year, including the late night ramble sessions, you truly healed parts of me I know I couldn’t have on my own. Y’all were the magic I needed on this new journey ❤️✨